Tuesday, 26 June 2012

Hospital visit - leg update - struts loosened

Yesterday I was at the hospital again, for my routine x-rays and check-up. I didn't take a photo of my x-ray this time, but suffice to say that there has been more improvement! Looking at the cross section, two-thirds of the bone seems to be healed now. There's still a gap on the inside of my leg, but it doesn't look as big now.


So, the struts have been loosened. This means that they're still there (see photo), but are now not under tension. I was a bit nervous at first because basically this means that the two sets of rings are not firmly connected together anymore so in principle my leg could shift if the break hasn't healed enough. If I notice it shifting at all now I have to reapply the strut tension and set them back to how they were before yesterday.

But after 24 hours it now feels almost the same strength-wise as it did before - I think that's a really good sign. What's odd now is that it rattles a lot which is a bit disconcerting! Also, the rings at the bottom can move if you press on them, which is also very strange because they are bolted to my bone so it must be moving too. I guess this means that the bone hasn't calcified yet, but that would be normal - I saw this last time when they took the frame off.

What's next? I'm going to be like this for 2 weeks - enough time to see on a new x-ray whether the bone has shifted. If it has, I think the tension will be put back on and the struts put back in position. But on the last 24 hours' evidence, I don't think it will shift, so then I think the struts will be removed completely. That will be another adjustment mentally for me but it might be better because at least there won't be the rattling! Two weeks after that, assuming no shift of the bone, will be the earliest the frame can be removed. That would be early August I think.

The consultant said he'd like to see a bit more growth into the remaining gap before he removes the frame completely. I agree. In fact I'd be in favour of erring completely on the side of caution this time - I don't want to end up needing another corrective operation, and it's been so long now that another month or two is insignificant. Of course, the frame is awkward and uncomfortable and causes some pain at the pin sites, but leave it on as long as possible I say.

And I like it that I'm going back in 2 weeks - these visits are the milestones which I have to pace myself against - the more frequent the better.

Monday, 25 June 2012

Pennine Way Day 2 - Byrness - Bellingham

June 25 2008

Journal

0730 Byrness
Awake! Stiff as a board, as expected, but hopefully after a few miles everything will be fine :)

That lump on the horizon, that's The Cheviot.
1013 in Redesdale Forest
The Forestry logging trucks do indeed thunder past with no regard for your safety, just as the guide book says. Weather is OK. Path went along quite wet riverbank outside Byrness and then into the forest. I guess there's about another 3 miles of trees to go... There was this strange Dutch guy in the hostel who I think is walking around England on the roads - today I think he said he was going over to the north east, but on that big trunk road. Like I said, strange.

in Redesdale Forest, beware thundering trucks.

~1200 Brownrigg Head 
Left the fire road now, but there are Bogs. Lots of them. And foot repairs... What a nightmare! Never been so glad to see stone flagging as after that stretch of path near Padon Hill. Walking on roads now not seeming like such a stupid idea.

Very wet underfoot, stone flagging a welcome sight.

1402 (10.65 miles from BYR) 
Left foot very sore now - big blister. Done some repairs on it but fear it won't be enough. It stopped raining at last but is very windy. This is what it's really all about ;)

Approaching Bellingham.
~1600 
What a bloody miserable day. Upon descending into Bellingham, guess what? the sun comes out. Now I'm not complaining about that as such, but how come it waits till I'm there? Typical! Pitched my tent at Demesne Farm for a reasonable £5. In the village I bought some batteries and first aid stuff - we'll see if this 'compeed' stuff is any good tomorrow, won't we?

Today I saw 3 people going the other way.

Demesne Farm camp site, Bellingham.
At Demesne Farm, beware of Bull!



~1900 The Cheviot Hotel 
Had dinner - homemade lasagne which I think was actually homemade. Took some pictures around Bellingham and phoned Alison. Watched the amazing Germans play rubbish and win, as usual.

The Cheviot Hotel, Bellingham.

Today was hard. I bought some blister stuff, I just hope it works, otherwise this adventure may be over before too long. No! That's defeatist. Maybe I've already seen the worst bit - the stretch between the forestry road and Padon Hill. There is actually a way to avoid that section, but that would be cheating. This walk is probably going to be about exertion in the stamina sense. In the end, all that bog dodging didn't matter anyway because my feet were still wet. I had to squeeze my socks out three times today, and treat my feet for blisters. I've never had to do either of those things before, ever! Which means either there's something about this walk, or about carrying a large pack over this terrain that's special. On my preparation walks this didn't happen though, although my feet were dry. A combination, no doubt. After the joys of day one, today has brought home the magnitude of this undertaking.

Comments

Not much to add to this, except that I guess this was really a day when my mind and body woke up to appreciate what I'd set out to do. No amount of planning, reading maps, books, whatever, can substitute actually getting out and doing it. I was also very confused about the soreness of my feet and blisters. Honestly, I've hardly ever had blisters from walking, and I'd walked a lot in these boots and socks, so wasn't expecting any trouble, certainly not this much and so soon. I really think it must have been the extra weight and the fact that my feet were wet.

Day 2 Statistics

BYR - BEL
15.99 miles (46 miles since KY; 16.8%)
794m of ascent
370m max elevation
time stopped: 1h18m
time moving: 7h10m
overall average: 2.2mph
average when moving: 2.7mph

View today's photos on a map at Flickr.

Sunday, 24 June 2012

Pennine Way Day 1 - Kirk Yetholm - Byrness


June 24, 2008

Journal

An understated start (end) of this National Trail.  
0805 At the start! 
Got up all excited and made a flask of coffee - turned out the water wasn't properly boiled but I was too excited to do it again. From here I'm carrying enough water for 1.5 days - should get me to Byrness.
Put plasters on feet to try to protect them more after yesterday - we'll see...
Oh well, let's get on with it!















1033 The Schil (601m)  5.5 miles from KY
So far there are more cows on the Pennine Way than people! Seen 2 guys so far going the other way so they're nearly done. Took the high level option to gain height immediately - that's what it's all about after all. Pretty steep climb, but then I expected that. When I get to The Cheviot I'll have done the majority of today's climbing.

Cows and Cotton Grass.
Approaching The Schil.

Had a fall! Already! Just went over on my right ankle for no apparent reason. Could've ended it there and then - that would have been embarrassing. Anyway, guess it was because of the weight I'm carrying affecting my balance. 658m of ascent so far today. Have to say it's beautiful up here. This is just what I wanted - scenery, peace and quiet. Bliss.


1230 8.22 miles from KY, 991m of ascent so far today
Had a bit of a rest at a hut (bothy?) just before the (steep) climb up to Auchope cairn. A nice old guy came along, going the other way. Still, now I'm at Auchope cairn - onwards. Oh, that guy advised the hostel in Alston, but camping good at Dufton.

Auchope Cairn.
Duckboards. Press on!
1320 The Cheviot (815m) 9.95 miles from KY
The trig. point here is very strangely placed on some breeze blocks, about 1.5m above the ground! Also, the bog is reclaiming some of the nice flagstoned path, requiring some tricky balancing on planks! Strange to consider that I'll only be higher than this once on the whole rest of the walk! Oh, and it's lunch time.


The Cheviot. 2nd highest point on PW.
Tricky in places.

1510 Windy Gyle (619m) 1302m of ascent, 15 miles from KY
Windy, but otherwise not much to see. Apparently, this is the best place to camp between KY and Byrness - doesn't look too good to me! Looks like Byrness may be pushing it today. I'll already be very stiff tomorrow but I knew that. I will try to get to 20 miles then find a place to camp, possibly near Chew Green.

Windy Gyle.

2120 Byrness!
Yes I know, and I'm completely battered - hopefully I'll be able to get up tomorrow! It did start raining but not too badly. I got to Chew Green and looked for a good spot for the tent, but couldn't find one so I decided to press on. Eventually I realised I could get to Byrness before dark, and decided to go to the YHA, and here I am. This place is very well organised - more so than KY. They have a cupboard that you can buy all kinds of stuff from - even real ale, so needless to say I got a couple of bottles. Cooked some rice and ate some fruit. Not a banquet, but there you go. Oooh I'm sore, hope I can stand up in the morning! Heard shooting on the ranges before when I was coming down into Byrness. Tomorrow I should camp. How was day one? Marvellous! It feels good to ache.

Raven's Knowe, looking back to The Cheviot.

Day 1 statistics

KY - BYR
29.08 miles (10.6%)
1889m of ascent
815m max elevation 
time stopped: 2h38m 
time moving: 10h26m 
overall average: 2.2mph 
average when moving: 2.8mph


Comments

So, you see, the plan already got changed! If I had booked it all up, I would've booked Byrness for tomorrow night, meaning I either would have had to wild camp up in the hills, or I would've come to Byrness a day early and had to have a rest day tomorrow. Doing the PW this way around makes the start a difficult problem. You're fit and eager, you want to keep walking forever. In hindsight, it was perhaps a bit foolish to do a bit more than 10% of the walk on the first day, but hey. I'd do it again ;) On the other hand, if you are doing the PW in the traditional direction, this is a killer last day, and you'll probably break it in two up in the hills somewhere. Unless you push on for the Hotel and then seize up in the bar there!

There really wasn't anywhere obvious to camp at Chew Green. And you'd never know it was a Roman fort if it didn't tell you on the map. You'd walk right past it! Windy Gyle is supposed to be the best place to camp up there, but it didn't look that good to me either. The two guys I saw going the other way had camped somewhere, clearly. Should've asked them where.

Byrness YHA is one of the ones that is now under private management. We will see a lot of issues with the YHA as we go through this journey.

The weather was good today - this was probably the one day where I really didn't want a soaking, or I would have tolerated a soaking if I could still see views. A high-level walk in mist and cloud would've been no fun at all. So, my first stroke of luck vs the weather :)

Byrness YHA.

View today's photos on a map at Flickr.

Saturday, 23 June 2012

Pennine Way Day 0 - New Mills - Kirk Yetholm

Kelso, Scottish Borders.

New Mills - Kirk Yetholm,  June 23 2008

Journal

1300 Town Yetholm.

Made it to Town Yetholm. All trains and buses on time. Bus driver from Berwick to Kelso was a lunatic! Decided to walk from Kelso, probably a bad idea as it's all on the road and my feet are a bit sore now.

The hills I'm going up tomorrow?

Anyway, I'm enjoying the first pint of the journey, at The Plough Hotel. Yetholm boasts two Good Beer Guide drinking holes. This one had Dizzy Blonde (which I'm enjoying) and a Jennings brew. I'm sure some people will think that I've just finished as that's the usual way around but never mind. A dilema - to pretend at The Border Hotel later on and get a free half? Probably not I guess.

It has been quite sunny today and I think I'm already a bit sunburned. I also think I caught a glimpse of the path before - if I'm right it looks more like a road!

Oh well, let's go and see Kirk Yetholm, and the youth hostel...

Later @ The Border Hotel, Kirk Yetholm.

The Border Hotel, Kirk Yetholm.
Got talking to a nice bloke (Roddy) at the bar here who is a self-confessed 'bar-fly'. There are also some Americans here - an old couple - I do have some sympathy because they made a faux pas at the bar which I perfectly understood since I've lived there...

Oh, I wasn't allowed to eat at the bar, so now I'm on my table by myself! I suppose there always has to be rules... The food though is good - Roxburghshire Pie - v.v. nice!

Anyway that bloke Roddy said that if I email him my address when I finish - he will make sure I get a certificate sent out. That's nice, huh?

Went back to the hostel and fell straight asleep!

Comments

I'll try to stick to this format, although it might not always work. I'll transcribe my journal entries and then add some thoughts I'm having about it now.

One thing I already noticed is that it's going to read a lot like the Pennine Way pub crawl! I often wrote in my journal in a pub with a beer, so obviously it occurred to me to write down where and what I was drinking. I was really excited to be finally doing it, what I'd planned and looked forwards to for so long :)

The dilemma about pretending to have finished is that at The Border Hotel you can still get a half-pint of beer "on Wainwright" as it says at the end of his book. Originally it was a pint, but inflation! I believe that these free half-pints are now funded by the hotel, but originally they really were paid for by Wainwright.

I also remember thinking while I was on the train that it was a bloody long way. Basically I would walk home from Kirk Yetholm. The train from Sheffield to Berwick-upon-Tweed takes 3 hours!

Youth Hostel, Kirk Yetholm.
The Youth Hostel in Kirk Yetholm probably survives solely due to the Pennine Way. It's not clear to me why this trail ends here. If it were designed nowadays I suppose it would end in a bigger place. There's really nothing in KY except the hostel and the hotel.

View the photos from today on a map at Flickr.

Friday, 22 June 2012

Pennine Way - Planning and Preparation

Introduction

As promised, over the next 18 days I will do what I should've done ages ago, and write up my Pennine Way adventure from 2008. Today, 4 years ago, June 22 2008, was the day before I set off for Kirk Yetholm, so it was the day when I finally had to pack up all my stuff.

It's not as though I have nothing to do at the moment, but I think this will be a fun experience for me to relive a lot of it, and I hope it won't be totally boring to read about either. Certainly, if you are thinking you'd like to do the Pennine Way, you could do a lot worse than read someone's experiences of having done it, and see if you can't learn from some of their mistakes!

As I look out of the window here in New Mills now, the weather reminds me of some of the days on the PW already! It's miserable. I guess it goes to show that our weather is not special this year or any other - on any given June/July day in England it can be lovely and warm and sunny or completely utterly soul-destroyingly miserable like today. Mizzle I think they call it - for mist/drizzle, but could equally be miserable drizzle. There were a couple of days when I walked all day in this, didn't see a thing, but there were also some glorious days where I saw everything and had a thoroughly good time. You can't pick which days they will be, so you have to be lucky. I think on balance I was. There were a couple of days which were fine which would have been an absolute nightmare if the weather had been bad.

The state of my life at the time I did the walk was not perfect - my wife and I had separated and I found myself in the middle of some nonsense at work. It did come at a very good time though, a total break from normal life, just me against myself, the weather and the PW. Some of the reflections about it and the effect it has had on me I'll save for later, but I will say now that I learned an enormous amount about myself by doing it. Rediscovered some things about myself that I'd forgotten. In so many ways it's one of the best things I've ever done.

June 22 2008 - packing my rucksack up.

Planning & Preparation

It's fair to say I'd been planning this expedition for a long time. Maybe ever since my Dad told me about the Pennine Way when I was a kid and how he'd tried it with some mates but given up after 3 days. He gave me his Wainwright (still the de facto guidebook but of limited practical use nowadays) which I read cover to cover and dreamed of seeing these sights with my own eyes, and of being in a position to write about my own experiences like he does. Wainwright makes no bones about the fact that this is a beast of a walk. It was Britain's first national trail and I will bet any money it is still the hardest. When Wainwright went on to design his Coast to Coast, part of his plan was to create an antithesis to the PW, in other words, make it a nice walk. Still, as far as walking challenges go, it is Britain's major one. There are several reasons why and they will become apparent through my own experience with it, but suffice to say do not go into this thinking it will be anything less than an ordeal.  I didn't, so I had planned and prepared well, I think.

I probably spent a year thinking about it seriously, reading the map mostly, trying to put it together into stages that I thought I could execute realistically. I did have some prerequisites for how I wanted to do it. First, alone. I like walking with other people, sometimes, but this was always going to be a solo effort. I didn't know enough about my body and how it would cope over this distance to be able to consider possibly being at someone else's mercy, or they at mine. There are only two people I would ever have considered doing it with - my Dad and David Howe. In any case, I wanted to be able to do things at my own pace, and that included the possibility of changing the plan, whatever that would be, to suit the particular circumstances of the day, be that physical problems or the weather. That meant that while I would definitely have to have a plan, I would not book anything ahead so that I could afford to be flexible. Not booking anything means that you have to have to capability to be completely self-sufficient, so I knew I was going to have to carry camping gear, just in case. That adds a lot of weight, but I decided early on that that was worth it to be able to have maximum flexibility.

I did know that keeping weight to a minimum was also key, so I decided to use a smaller rucksack than you can get. I used a 50 litre North Face bag I got in the States. Normally for these things I think you would use 65 litres. But I decided that trying to use a smaller sack would encourage me not to take anything I didn't absolutely want or need to have. So it worked out. The photo above shows pretty much everything I took, minus food and water of course. The sack was full, but I didn't have anything I didn't need.

Some things to pick out. 

Maps / books. 

You can't take all the maps, they're too bulky. So I made my own map book, spiral bound. I printed OS Explorer maps from Memory-Map software onto special waterproof inkjet paper. This has the additional benefit of being able to annotate with a pen, and it will last forever, a permanent souvenir, something that covered every mile with me. I took my GPS, not really for navigation, but to record the tracks from each day and to tell me statistics about each day like distance, height climbed, etc. I took two books - the Wainwright (compulsory), and a more modern guidebook with phone numbers of YHAs and B&Bs in and so on.

Tent / camping. 

I bought a new tent - quite expensive for what it is, 250 quid, but it weighs less than 1 kg. It was the lightest one man tent money could buy at the time, and possibly still is. I took a Trangia for cooking, and a bottle of fuel. Two water bottles, a flask. A mess tin with some coffee, sugar, matches, a spoon/fork thing. My penknife. A head torch.

Clothes.

I basically took the clothes I was wearing plus one change set, shorts, extra socks and waterproofs. I got a Berghaus Paclite jacket which I still use today and is very light and packs up small. My main coat was a Helly Hansen I'd had since Canada in 1998. I had a waterproof hat, and gloves.

Boots.

I've had my Brasher boots for ages. They're knackered now, but I'd been using them for years and they're very comfortable. I couldn't have done the PW without them I think. I took flip flops for wearing when I took my boots off - very light and air your feet. Perfect.

That's pretty much it. The rest of the sack I filled up with emergency food, first aid kit, and that left a lot of space for carrying day to day supplies.

The packed up rucksack :)

The Route

The Pennine Way is 275 miles long, between Edale in Derbyshire and Kirk Yetholm in the Scottish Borders. I had read various accounts of the best length of time to tackle it in, and I had settled on 14 days. Oh, and I should've said earlier, I always planned to do it North-South, which is not the usual way of doing it. The main reason for this is that I live about 6 miles from Edale, the official start, so by doing it in the opposite direction I would be walking home. I liked this from a psychological point of view, and also because I wouldn't need to book travel back from Kirk Yetholm and so be on a schedule. It also meant that I wouldn't see many people doing it the same as me and keep passing and getting passed by the same people. Sounds uncharitable, but really, I wanted to do it on my own, my own way. I also knew that I could afford to drop a day or two and it wouldn't matter. As I said above, I had no idea what to expect after a couple of days from my body so needed to be able to make it up as I went along to a certain extent. 

I knew where the tricky points were from an accommodation point of view. I had made a list of all the places on the route and the distances between them. I knew without thinking about it I could do 15-25 miles a day. So I knew at least in principle that the stages would be Kirk Yetholm - Chew Green - Bellingham - Once Brewed - Alston - Dufton - Middleton - Tan Hill - Hawes - Horton - Malham - Lothersdale - Mankinholes - Crowden - Edale. I'd be using a combination of YHA, B&B and camping.

If you know anything about the PW you will know that the traditional last day, Byrness - KY is a long day in the hills that doesn't pass through any places. It's a high-level walk of about 29 miles. This would be my first day. I didn't think starting a 2 week walk with a super long, hard day was a good idea, so I had planned to camp around the area of the Roman fort remains at Chew Green, but I wasn't sure. So, the plan could well change on Day 1!

In the end it did and there were a couple of further enforced deviations from this schedule, which completely vindicated my decision to try to be as flexible as possible in planning.

Thursday, 21 June 2012

Two years to the day

Today it's exactly two years since the accident. Two years ago today I was on ventilation in the Intensive Care Unit of Lancaster hospital. In some ways it seems like a very long time ago now, seems like a long time since I rode my bike or walked without crutches. Like the Queen I have two birthdays now, although I guess this one, June 21, will only be celebrated by me and those closest to me who know just how close it was to being the day I died.

But, I said at the time that I thought that in the end this experience would have a positive effect on me. We're not there yet, still some recovering to do, but hopefully at some point within the next 12 months this episode will start to be in the past rather than the present.

Since the last x-ray, in the last month, I have started thinking more about how much it will be different when I can walk/ride again, and less about if I will ever walk/ride again. I know it's going to hurt, probably for good, especially my ankle, but I can live with and manage that. My leg feels more normal mechanically now, and in the last two weeks I have started to realise that I will be able to walk again, I'm just not sure how painful or awkward it's going to be.

I had my first session with a psychotherapist this last week. This is to help me explore and deal with any negative emotions and/or psychological effects resulting from the accident, like post-traumatic stress. I am curious to see what the effects of going to the sessions will be. He already paid me a massive compliment by remarking that I had harnessed my resilience I use in my outdoor activities and put it to effect in dealing with my current situation. I have realised this myself before now, but I liked it that someone else noticed. One thing that's almost guaranteed to make me cry is when I think that I thought I was training hard to be fit enough to do really well in a race or a sportive, but really I guess I was training for this.

A conversation on Twitter today made me think about my Pennine Way adventure, which was almost four years ago now. I always meant to write up my little diary from that and put some pictures together, so I plan to do it on my blog on the appropriate days, starting therefore on June 24 which was the day in 2008 that I set out from home. Doing the Pennine Way was without question the hardest physical thing I've ever done, including what's been going on at the moment - although I suspect there are more challenges ahead in that respect. I'd love to do the PW again, so that is now getting added to the ever-growing list of 'things I'm going to do when I've recovered'.

In that vein, the same conversation also made me think about the CVMBC, the Kielder 100 and riding and mountain biking in general, not that it's ever that far from my thoughts. Maybe the CVMBC 2013 (May) is going to be pushing it still, but maybe in autumn 2013 or spring 2014 I may be able to return to competitive action.

So in the end it might be a 3-4 year hiatus. At this point I'll take that, not that I have a choice, you just have to get on with it. Persistence is everything.

Thursday, 31 May 2012

Some good news at last :)

On Monday this week I had my (seemingly monthly now) X-rays. I wasn't expecting to be able to see anything or for there to have been any progress, it being 6 weeks since I stopped the adjustments, but... there was visible growth in the gap! There was quite a crowd in my consultant's office, which I guess is what happens when there's some good news to dish out (maybe). One of the nurses commented that it was about time I had some good news!

Monday's top-view X-ray.

It looks like a big gap still, but comparing with last month's, you can clearly see some more cloudiness in the gap, and that the gap is less defined. These are both signs of new bone growth. Even when it's fully healed, I think it will still look broken on the X-ray.

The consultant did a bit of a comparison of the lengths of my legs and we decided that probably no further adjustment in terms of length was necessary. Looks like I won't be in the NBA after all ;)

The plan now is that I will go back in 4 weeks on June 25, and depending on the result of the X-rays that day, maybe some of the struts will get loosened. If that comes to pass it will mean the healing is going faster than I expected. My consultant explained to me that eventually the struts will be removed and then 2 weeks with no support will be enough to determine if the healing is complete. Then I can get the frame removed. This is one of the advantages of this kind of frame - you can see if it's worked before you take the step to remove it. Awesome.

Here's what it looks like in the flesh now.

I've been told now to try to do as much as possible within pain limits in terms of weight-bearing and trying to leave the crutches behind. The more I can do, the more it will promote the healing of the bone. So today I left the house for the first time with only one crutch since the operation, to get my hair cut. Only a little way down the hill and back up again, but I'm paying for it now. Man it hurts now! I've guzzled down some paracetomol and ibuprofen so hopefully that will help.

No pain, no gain! But boy it hurts now!